On my way to the surgery, moving along brightly lit hallways, I thought to myself; what if I die tonight, would I be satisfied or proud of my life? I thought deeply as I stared into the vivid LEDs on the ceiling. I concluded that I had no past mistakes or things I regretted, to be honest, I only had family in my mind. I felt the cold, the sterilized air moved along my arms, as I was surrounded by highly trained professionals. I was aware and loving of everyone around me. I put my cards into God’s hands and told him to take care of me. My arm turned numb, my speech disappeared, my vision faded, and all of a sudden I was gone. It felt like a short eternity but I awoke with rapid breaths, a slight pain, and the feeling of the unknown. I realized where I was and I focused my mind on my breath and my room at home, my safe space. Breathe I said, breathe. You are not this vessel, breathe and be calm. I focused on my breathing, I calmed and thanked the doctors with the only words I could find. I settled down in the room I was given and slept like a princess. Now I’m awake, aware, and well. Thank you 🖤