What’s my personal purpose?

I thought it was to “sing for these kids who don’t have a thing except for a dream and a fucking rap magazine”

Then I thought it was to inspire the next generation to pursue self-improvement and reach for higher goals and values

Then I thought it was to lead people to Christ.

And now, I think, it might be to show the world how corrupt its leaders and governments are

In end it might all come together as one

Tomorrow we move into our new home. Finally out of the hotel after ten weeks. I finished two songs in the last day, one being mastered as we speak. I might finish another one tonight, it’s all done it just needs to be re-recorded. We are broke, really broke but everything seems to work out. Triton has been an angel, supporting, helping and being there for us. This was a big chapter in my life, I learned lots. This next home will be my last one before my music blows up. I’m getting better and better, it’s just a matter of time now. I’m getting stronger, I’m feeling myself more and more.

In this moment, everything is quite. Peaceful. But I’m not sure what will come. We lost our home. We’re living in a hotel. On insurance money. Not sure when we’re able to go back. Money will run out in three-four weeks. Where will we go? The only way out, that I see right now, is to move back into the old apartment. But that’s only if they let us back before our money runs out. All our belongings are stuffed in a storage unit.

Idk. Will see

On my way to the surgery, moving along brightly lit hallways, I thought to myself; what if I die tonight, would I be satisfied or proud of my life? I thought deeply as I stared into the vivid LEDs on the ceiling. I concluded that I had no past mistakes or things I regretted, to be honest, I only had family in my mind. I felt the cold, the sterilized air moved along my arms, as I was surrounded by highly trained professionals. I was aware and loving of everyone around me. I put my cards into God’s hands and told him to take care of me. My arm turned numb, my speech disappeared, my vision faded, and all of a sudden I was gone. It felt like a short eternity but I awoke with rapid breaths, a slight pain, and the feeling of the unknown. I realized where I was and I focused my mind on my breath and my room at home, my safe space. Breathe I said, breathe. You are not this vessel, breathe and be calm. I focused on my breathing, I calmed and thanked the doctors with the only words I could find. I settled down in the room I was given and slept like a princess. Now I’m awake, aware, and well. Thank you 🖤